Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Why revisited

Welcome back to Dr. A Unplugged. Ever see this MTV show? It was at its peak in the early 1990s when Mariah Carey was still someone you said, "Who is Mariah Carey?" And, nirvana was just another grunge band from Seattle. The popularity of the show was, in my opinion, due to its raw nature. No electronic keyboard, no electric guitar, and no sound effects -- just a guitar, maybe a piano, and just the voice of the singer. Very refreshing when music was (and still is) littered with electronic manipulations.

I'm feeling in that kind of raw state right now. Most thoughts unfiltered -- not going through the politically correct washing machine before it comes out of my mouth or off my keyboard. Kind of a liberating way to blog, let me tell you. I guess that's why I put that out at 3am. I was really close to hitting the delete button. But, I wanted to get it out there, because, life is full of ups and downs. And, your blog should be a reflection of your life, right? I feel like I'm at a Blogaholics Anonymous meeting.

I'm apologize if I'm worrying people today with my posts. It was not my intention to do that -- just to give a little snapshot of my life first hand. Now, I just need to get through the afternoon, finish the work that absolutely needs finished, and then go home and sleep. It's amazing what a little sleep does. It's life's little pause button. Probably take a blogging break tomorrow and make a comeback Friday. We'll see. Thanks for all the well wishes!

8 comments:

ripple of hope said...

That's what blogs are for . . .they are very therapeutic. Keep writing--it really helps. And don't forget to get some rest; you need to take care of yourself. *hugs* DP

Moof said...

I'm learning to keep my finger off the delete key. For those things that I just can't put on my public blog, there's my private blog ... but it all gets said - no matter how horrible it sounds.

Yes, I've had some embarrassing moments ... but the benefit of being able to write things out has more than made up for the discomfort.

If you're "worrying" people, then it's actually a good thing - because it shows that they care about you. People can't know that you need support at that time unless you tell them.

Rest ... and come back when you're ready. We'll be here.

Hoping4more said...

Resist the urge to press delete!! Urr, um...uh, nevermind (deleted the rest..) In your case I don't think you have a problem AT ALL.. of course, that being compared to me! a little give, a little take... if you'll give me just a little frontal lobe filtration, I'll hand over a little expressive liberation... I'm silly, I know...

Hoping4more said...

D.A. "But, I wanted to get it out there, because, life is full of ups and downs. And, your blog should be a reflection of your life, right?"

YES! AMEN! Kudos to you...from one blogaholic to another...

Pattie said...

That is one of the great things about blogging. It is very therapeutic. I guarantee you that the more you write, the more will come out. You will find a comfort zone..it is cathartic!

Oh yeah, and get some rest. Sleep is life's little pause button! :)

NeoNurseChic said...

I'm feeling in that kind of raw state right now. Kind of a liberating way to blog, let me tell you. I guess that's why I put that out at 3am. I was really close to hitting the delete button. But, I wanted to get it out there, because, life is full of ups and downs. And, your blog should be a reflection of your life, right?

I'm proud of you for writing that and I have to say that I can relate - sounds like something I would say. I've been struggling for the past few months with my blog - it's not at all what I originally intended it to be, but I value and appreciate it a lot more the way it is. At one point earlier on in my blogging, I had made a comment about perhaps separating my blog into nursing things and personal things because I felt maybe it was "unprofessional" for a medical blogger to blend it all together. Cathy is actually the one who adamantly said no and convinced me that by blogging it all in one place, then people see the "real" me...not just the nurse professional me or some other specific side of me. Her support from the beginning of my blog has actually helped me to write about things that I wouldn't have ordinarily written about.

And I hate that we feel like we have to apologize for not only writing about life's ups and downs, but also for having them. It's like it's been pounded into our skulls for so long that we must be happy and we must love our job no matter what and we must not show sadness or any other emotion that does not fit into expectations of perfection - and these expectations make us feel somehow apprehensive about writing things that others may view as negative or against the mainstream. Almost like we are letting somebody down by writing about the negatives in our lives...God forbid we admit we aren't happy with some things... God forbid we are human!

But that's not the case and it's something that I'm working on, and apparently you are working on as well. It's okay to be up, down, and all over the place sometimes. There is no "supposed to" when it comes to feelings and emotions. What we feel is what we feel and we shouldn't have to constantly censor the raw, even though that's obviously what we have to do to get through the work day, but unfortunately all too often we have to censor the raw even in close personal and family relationships, which I think is a real shame...

Sorry for being so long-winded. Your posts today struck a chord with me, and I felt the need to go all philosophical. Make sure you take time to care for yourself, too. Get some rest and try to do something that you enjoy at least once every day, even if it means taking time away from something else. It's the only way to survive this life, afterall. And you've got all of us cheering you along, too!

Hugz,
Carrie :)

kt said...

oh please! i encourage blunt, raw and honest. i don't want nicey nicey spread over irritation. keep blogging what you are feeling and we promise to do the same.

been on vacation..when the heck is the next Bloggers Addiction meeting? I have some coronas I've been meaning to give out at our next one.

Cathy said...

Dr. A. I have missed all your recent posts. As I'am catching up, it seems I have missed alot the few days I was gone.

I decided a log time ago, to not really monitor what I blog about. Just like we can't control certain situations that occur we also can't demand to feel one way when our bodies are telling us we feel something different.

Blogging is what gets me through many of rough days. I love the happy feel good posts but its not always our reality. Reality has it's fair amount of pain and sadness that we should not hide from the world, our true friends and certainly not from ourselves.

People listen on here. They may be silent and not utter a word, but they are there, listening and understanding.